BETTER THAN ME

Last night when you were sitting on my lap
i looked into your eyes ; i saw love and trust
the way you held my hand tight
the way you nodded on everything i said
i felt that you are killing urself to be perfect for me
and deep inside i felt guilty
because i know,that i ain't perfect myself
im so much used to using you
that it feels all too normal
but sometimes i feel like ive lost you
lost you a long time ago
now,you are just a slave to my orders
you do what i want you to do
im so used to blaming you for everything wrong
that now i feel you are wrong indeed
but then i tell myself'this is all i wanteda girl who loves and obeys me'but im not happy
because i fear that i might not be able to keep my promises
because i see a lot of expectations in your beautiful eyes
that i might not be able to fulfill
it wouldn't have mattered if you were a cheater
it wouldn't have mattered if you were a liar
but you are none
i know that you are not perfect
but you are so much better than me

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The grass here beneath my shoes isn't as green as before and this bench under the shade of the old tree as i sit alone on this narrow bench....Its real cold
i have my hands tightly held around my chest...Couldn't buy a jacket this winter....Sold old one's off...Running short of money , you See don't feel like working since u've gone c'mon don't make me wait anymore, remember...This bench is the place where we met last..Where you kissed me goodbye since then i've been here every saturday..Hoping that u'd return
now,i think i should leave im hungry you see maybe i would have to sleep empty stomach....You don't worry, okay you didn't turn up today too but i know you would someday.....Ill wait till then..And i'd be fine b'cause i still have a reason to live...ITS YOU