Forever

i miss all those times,

but for you the time with him is better.

All i ever wanted was a little bit of love,

a part of your life.

But i know we can t get everything we want.

I can t even say i would miss you,

because you would be with me there forever.

For the end of my time,

i would cherish us together.

Its not that any girl would not kiss me anymore,

but i would miss your lips forever.

I remember each time that we fought,

how our love grew better.

I admit that i was wrong,

but i thought you would hold on forever.

Its not that any girl wouldn't be with me,

but i would miss being with u forever.

I see you gone,

I'm broken but i try to keep it sober.

This house screams at me in my mind,

your voice hovers.

Its not that any girl would not love me,

but i would not be able to love her ever.

I feel holes all through me.

I will end this pain.

My time is over.

Now nobody would ever love me,

now I'm yours forever.

WHY ?

Why do i always have to be alone ?

Why there is no one who is just concerned about me ?

A someone, somewhere just for me

why do those whom i want to be in my world, have to run away into worlds of their own

those with whom i get intimate with have to have more important works than me, why ?

Why do i expect too much out of everybody, when i know they cant keep up to my expectations ?

Why do i hurt myself, cry and scratch walls when they aren't around, knowing they are somewhere, unconcerned ?

Why do i give my best to maintain links, when i know the others ain't even trying?

Why it happens that when i feel i have a perfect life

it all comes tumbling down into ruins ?

Why?

BETTER THAN ME

Last night when you were sitting on my lap
i looked into your eyes ; i saw love and trust
the way you held my hand tight
the way you nodded on everything i said
i felt that you are killing urself to be perfect for me
and deep inside i felt guilty
because i know,that i ain't perfect myself
im so much used to using you
that it feels all too normal
but sometimes i feel like ive lost you
lost you a long time ago
now,you are just a slave to my orders
you do what i want you to do
im so used to blaming you for everything wrong
that now i feel you are wrong indeed
but then i tell myself'this is all i wanteda girl who loves and obeys me'but im not happy
because i fear that i might not be able to keep my promises
because i see a lot of expectations in your beautiful eyes
that i might not be able to fulfill
it wouldn't have mattered if you were a cheater
it wouldn't have mattered if you were a liar
but you are none
i know that you are not perfect
but you are so much better than me

YOU AND ME

You and me
as we walk on the frozen river, you rest on my shoulder

your warm breath on my neck, the beauty of these twisted trees

i enjoy your company

you and me
you and me
as we dance on this frozen river

your hand in mineand i take the lead

your pink lips and white sparkle beneath

you enjoy my company

you and me
you and me
you and me as we lie on this frozen river

i look into your eyes and i see love

you and me
you and me
night sky above,beneath is frozen river

this cold is no match to our warmth

we both are one ,recluse and arcane

you enthral every part of me

you and me
you and me
as your dark nails touch my lips

you run through their length

i look into your radiant eyes

the cruel time does stop

and we kiss for eternity

you and me.........

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The grass here beneath my shoes isn't as green as before and this bench under the shade of the old tree as i sit alone on this narrow bench....Its real cold
i have my hands tightly held around my chest...Couldn't buy a jacket this winter....Sold old one's off...Running short of money , you See don't feel like working since u've gone c'mon don't make me wait anymore, remember...This bench is the place where we met last..Where you kissed me goodbye since then i've been here every saturday..Hoping that u'd return
now,i think i should leave im hungry you see maybe i would have to sleep empty stomach....You don't worry, okay you didn't turn up today too but i know you would someday.....Ill wait till then..And i'd be fine b'cause i still have a reason to live...ITS YOU

a new world for an old punk

Some words, some misery. the title while not being something very interesting i suppose you would understand what i mean. Well blogging ain't new to me but blogger atmosphere is new so i hope you guys like my simple poetry and simple writings.

I am but a simple man and so are my works. Simple, for you to read and can relate to. hope you like it.